little girl, Big World

Friday, December 30, 2005

Departure Day!

Spent one day doing last minute shopping and changing for Canadian dollars. Wow. never knew the Canadian dollar was so in demand, considering that it's winter there and its COLD! I walked along the whole Orchard Road, only to be told by this nice money changer that the whole stretch of Orchard didn't have the Canadian dollar. Hah. (Didn't know that all of them were part of the same 'family'!)

In the end, I had to go Holland Village to get the Canadian money. Had to wait for it to arrive and I spent that time sitting in BK and reading the fifth Harry Potter Book. Darn. Think I read too much, and left myself with too little to entertain myself on the plane. Then i went over to find my friends over at Cantina, and I think it hit me again how much things will change while i'm gone, and how i can't witness this change, and how my friends and family could not also be with me through this period of time. Well, it is a short time if you do think about it, but also long enough for many things to happen over in Singapore while I'm in ontario!

Ivan flew off to Finland today! I didn't manage to see him off cos I had too much last minute packing to do! (Ivan if you're reading this, I'M SO SORRY!) Which then begs the question, WHY IN THE WORLD CAN I FIND TIME TO BLOG IF I COUDLN'T FIND TIME TO SEE HIM OFF?? Well, I'm a paranoid girl. Every fifteen mintues or so i panic and start rumaging through my suitcase to make sure i've got everything. haha. gan cheong to the max. You guys should know. So i decided to take a breather from this obsessive compulsive behavior and sit myself infront of my lappie (WHICH I HAVEN'T PACKED!! Must remember to pack!!) to blog.

Well, I don't have much to say now, except I'm really gonna miss all you guys out there. Temasek Hall ppl, DND ppl, NUS coursemates, JC friends. AND, my FAMILY. gosh. this is a big step out of my comfort zone. A big big step! Will update once i get internet access again. heh.

PS: I realize that more ppl will be reading this and I will probably need to do up this blog but forgive me, I'm not one for frills and fanciful stuff. haha so i'll keep this plain and simple. Anyway, I'm sure that the pictures are enough to make this blog interesting. heh.

Tuesday, December 20, 2005

If I had any reason to doubt the Lord, it would have been then. And if I have any reason to know that the Lord is good and He continues to guide me, even when I have been faithless, it is now.

Who would have thought? His grace IS SUFFICIENT for me. Praise the Lord!

Avalon - I Bring It To You (Cont'd)
Songs I’ve shouted to heaven
The grace I've never deserved
All these gifts I've been given
The life that I find in Your word

I bring it to You
There’s wonder in all that You do
I bring You the scraps that make up my soul
You make me whole, I’m gold
I bring it to You

I give You the glory
And I praise Your holy name
But more than anythingI bring You love
I bring You love
Contentment

I will always see this fascinating scene whenever I'm on my way back. A pleasant-looking lady, dressed sharply and expensively, no dobut,, with high heels, perfectly manicured hands and bouncy curls stands waiting for something or someone. And one fine night, I do manage to catch a glimpse of who she awaits. A man (or boy) comes along in his motorcycle and stops in front of her. She waits, till he offers her a ride. She smiles, a sheepish awkward smile, and attempts to put on the helmet. He laughs at her and helps her clasp it on. She mounts the bike and they zoom off. The image that remains etched in my memory is the smile she leaves the place with. The smile of silly contentment, contentment from feeling the wind in her hair, and knowing that she is safe, loved and protected.

It makes no sense. She can ask for so much more. She can look for so much more. Yet, she is content with what she has now. Maybe, she knows that by embracing whatever she possesses now makes her more able to patiently await what lies for her in the future. Maybe that's what they call faith, being sure of what you hope for and certain of what you do not see (Heb 11:1). And maybe, we should be like her, waiting patiently, knowing, and believing that, something better lies ahead. And even it doesn't, we'll still be happy with what we have.

"The river runs and the river hides
Out to the ocean and under the sky
I promise you, the answer will come
Hold on to patience and watch for the sign
'cause maybe there's another plan

One I still can't see
A little surprise, like your love in my life
Funny how time changes how we see"
Corrinne May, Everything in Its Time

Tuesday, December 13, 2005



Well well.. just two weeks more and I'll be on a plane bound for Toronto! It's been quite a hectic two weeks, working out my plane ticket, my accomodation over there, the courses I'll be taking, the places i wanna visit, the friends I wanna meet before I leave and when I get there. GOSH. And since my sister is complaniing i don't update, here's one.


Well I celebrated my 21st with minimal fanfare of sorts. 6th Dec, I was at GB centre, with my bestest and closest group of family and friends and I think I really could not have asked for anymore. I really, honestly, did not expect gifts of any sort (cos I kinda figured that their presence was actually one of the best gifts bestowed upon me) and hen I did get a few presents, frankly felt speechless and surprised. haha. Pictures of me (dressed extremely shabbily. haha. I really didn't think it was anything special, me being 21. I felt no different, nor more grown up or more mature)


Me attempting to cut the cake. Had to try and cut it to feed 40! Just like the story of 2 fish and 5 loaves of bread. haha. Or not.

Anyway, my birthday happened right smack in the middle of the yuoth and children camp, which I enjoyed immensely. The kids and youths (well SOME of the youths) were just plain adorable. Yup. Even my bro. haha.

Some pictures of the cute children, and my bro. haha



MY BRO

Me and Eunice, in our room

Youths playing.... WRESTLING CARDS. I can never understand that. sheesh.

Thursday, December 01, 2005

WOOHOO. Exams are over for me (been over since two days ago actually) and now i can really concentrate on the things that are coming up for me: My B & D Day. 6th Dec and 31st Dec respectively, if nothing goes wrong that is.

I also have a little youth camp coming up and Christmas skit! I play a spoilt brat who has no respect for her grandmother. And i think that would require a lot of acting on my part. haha. ;)

Keeping this short cos I'm going to watch harry potter now! Heard mixed reviews about it, but I should think it's good. Can't expect anything less from a harry potter movie can you? Youwei has just reminded me that I still 5 other movies I'm supposed to catch before i leave!! That's alot man. we'll see how I can squeeze that in, among my church, family, exchange commitments. Till the next time!