little girl, Big World

Thursday, November 30, 2006

SIGH. When other people have finished their exams, I just started mine. I'm just glad I'm not the only one in this situation.

Well, one down and three more to go. I didnt' think I did justice to the exam today. But just to comfort myself a bit, I wrote whatever I could think of at that point of time. I wasn't sure what the examiner was looking for (but then again, I never really got her in the first place). She made the study of this field of psychology that I thought was interesting and exciting initially, to be quite tedious at the end. But no complaints. I cannot excuse my lack of enthusiasm on others.

Back to books. Just needed to rant.

Monday, November 27, 2006

Each person's experience is unique to him/herself. There's no way you can truly empathize with them or truly understand them for that matter.

There's always a danger in saying 'I totally understand how you feel, I know you completely' and then go on to impose what you THINK he/she is experiencing on him/her.

The bottomline for me is: Always protect the feelings of the person you are helping, work only for the person's best interests. And this might mean learning to give up because you know you are not the best person in the situation for him/her.

I remember distinctly what Dr. Kristin Trotter shared with the class as if it was yesterday. Her blue eyes intense, yet so compelling and warm at the same time, staring into everyone else's in class. She said "The client fired me. And it was the correct choice. I wasn't in the right place to help her." So much confidence and yet so much humility just to admit that. It's amazing.

So unless I'm arrogant enough to think I'm the best person for the other, I should not force it upon others to think that way.

Just some random thoughts after studying for my module.. Exams are looming. And I'm less than halfway through my revision. Not cool.

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Things are always not what they seem, and even more so people.

You may find some thing so beautiful on the outside, yet discover that its insides are rotting away.

Maybe it's precisely for this reason that these people require a beautiful facade to convince themselves, and others that they are okay.

No, I'm not bitter or anything. Just dumbfounded. Dumbfounded at the ludicrity of it all. Can one be so blinded by the thoughtless pursuit of the superficial?

It's so disappointing. The cycle goes on. From parent to child. From child to grandchild. So viscious. Just like you.

It always hurts more when it's someone you thought you could trust.

So I'm going to prove you wrong. Pui.

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

My hectic semester is almost over. Just one more paper, one more quiz and one last set of exams!

Having two exams on my birthday is quite a downer, but I know I'll pull through.

Memories of skiing/toboganning have resurfaced after my luging experience at Sentosa. It was too short a track I felt, but I was glad I could ride the skyride up. It reminded me SO MUCH of the times me and Anita went up the ski slope to ski down O Keefe or Humpty Dumpty. And the slope where we both fell and just couldn't stop laughing about it. Ahhhhh. Good times.

But the reality of the present is sobering. I lost one of my church friends just last night. She was old, and led a blessed life, and my regret was that I didn't keep my promise of playing mahjong with her. My heart goes out to her son and his wife, whom has always been enouraging and sweet to me in church. A loved one lost is really a big thing to deal with. I just pray that this will pull them toward God and not away.