Pui. Seems like the hurdles I must cross are endless. One thing surfaces and before I can react to it, another looms. It's nuts really.

I don't remember having to face so many challenges at one go (or maybe it's just that I have bad memory?) And I keep thinking to myself, is it something I'm doing wrong? Maybe I should have done something better previously so that I would not have ended up in this state. But honestly, I don't see any way else to handle it.

S*** happens I guess. It just seems to happen more now than ever. Feel like my head is underwater and my body is in slow motion. Having a chesty cough doesn't help either.

I just wanna scream. Go somewhere quiet and just scream my lungs out. And after that, I just wanna cry. Weep until there are to tears left and then maybe I can start facing what I need to face.

More than ever, I'm missing my time at SEP. I guess expectations have a lot to do with that.

Those times spent at the servery doing MJ, settlers online, Cranium, Scattergory, XMen with Walter, Marvin, Tony, Colin, Special J, Ratman, Greg, Chris, Anita, Pierre, Daffy (in no particular order) were just unbeatable. Really, it's not the quantity but quality of time spent together that counts. I can't explain it. Everything appears more fun just cause you guys were part of it.

Man, getting all nostalgic. Must be the dreary weather here. Or the fact that it's been almost one year since I set foot on the land where these amazing people are part of.

There are some friends that I've grown to expect much of, and many more that have caused much disappointment and hurt because of my idealistic beliefs. And some would have thought that I've learnt my lesson. But I know being superficial is not me.

The Holiday is a feel good movie. Certain parts of it really resound within me. Can't find many quotes from the movie but i really like the context from which this quote that I could find came out of.

"Iris: It seems I had it all wrong. It turns out you'll go somewhere new and meet people who make you feel worthwhile again."

Talk about random. My thoughts are haphazard.

And to the persons I know wouldn't read this: I really thought better of you, really envisioned something different. It hurts for the moment but I know I'll survive. And I promise that this won't make me bitter or trust others less.

Haven't updated in a while and much has happened since the last time...

Well, two exams on my birthday wasn't as bad as I expected thanks to all the nice well wishes I got on my birthday :) I'm continually amazed at how important friends are in one's life.

After my exams, I was on an emotional rollercoaster, facing quite big stresses at work and also disappointments with my friends. I've come to really appreciate the fact that one cannot help everyone. So we need to prioritize. We need to see what is truly important and once we can manage that then can we help others...

And just within 4 days after my last exam, I was whisked off to Bangkok! Frankly, I didn't like the city at all. I'm not a huge shopping fan (but given how cheap the things were in Bangkok, you're allowed to go crazy once in a while) and food wasn't superb either. But the company was brilliant. Thanks to my sis who kept my sanity and the other three guys who kept me on the brink of insanity. haha. I think my tolerance for crap has seriously increased tenfold after enduring this trip with you guys.

And last night, I went to hear Corrinne May live. For those of you who don't know who she is, man, you don't know what you're missing! Her voice is enchanting and enthralling to say the least, and her personality I give her 110%. She was so nice to EVERYONE who stayed back to get her autograph. Waiting 2h in line is nothing compared to the personalized treatment she gave to everyone and her nice demeanor, even having met 1001 people before you and probably having heard the same things said to her each time.

Note: Tickets to her concert were soldout before the flyers of publicity ever came out. Anyone who wants to be educated on her songs, get her CD!!

Needless to say, I got a nicely autographed (Thanks to Abel) CD and this CD (Thanks to Mar Vin) will stay in my CD player for a long long time. I'm really looking forward to her next album (Next summer!!) she sang two songs that she newly wrote: On the Way and Five Loaves & Two Fishes. And this song 'In the bleak mid-winter'

What can I give him
Poor as I am
If I were a shelter
I would bring a lamb
If I were a wise man
I would do my part

What can I give him
Give my heart

The reason for Christmas has never been more salient. Some winter day over 2000 years ago, all of heaven kissed the face of the earth, a miracle of love, God became man.

"Why lies He in such mean estate
Where ox and ass are feeding?
Good Christians, fear, for sinners here
The silent Word is pleading
Nails, spear, shall pierce Him through
The cross be borne for me, for you
Hail, Hail the Word made flesh
The Babe, the Son of Mary"
--> What Child is This?

Sisters by chance, Friends by choice

Got my first birthday present! :) Sisters know best indeed. She read my mind. Sweet!

I hope the days come easy and moments pass slow,
And each road leads you where you want to go,
And if you're faced with a choice, and you have to choose,
I hope you choose the one that means the most to you.

And if one door opens to another door closed,
I hope you keep on walkin' till you find the window,
If it's cold outside, show the world the warmth of your smile
But more than anything, more than anything...

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too
Yeah, this, is my wish.

I hope you never look back, but you never forget,
All the ones who love you, and the place you left,
I hope you always forgive, and you never regret,
And you help somebody every chance you get,
Oh, you find God's grace, in every mistake,
and always give more than you take.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too
Yeah, this, is my wish.
--> Rascal Flatts, My Wish

Heard this song over the radio and I immediately knew that this was the guy who sang the song 'Life is a Highway' which is another one of my favorite songs now (thanks obba!) It's lovely and I really wanna share this with all my friends and cheesy as it may sound, this is my wish to all of you this Christmas and for every other day of your lives.