it's been some time since I felt such a moment, a pregnant pause in the air, before the dawn of some revelation, when you knew for sure that something, someone, will be affected.

'You had your fun, your pleasure. But who bears the consequence of your behavior? It's not just you, you know. It's your mother-in-law, who looks after your post-stroke husband. It's your CHILDREN. Who wish they had their mother with them, thinking their mother is in the hospital, waiting and praying for her return. Don't punish them just cause of your impulse to do something for yourself. 8 months old. and missing the attachment and love of his mother at such a critical age."

I wished I had opened my mouth.

"Don't you understand? How much grace you have received thus far? That you can still have a husband, three beautiful children, a forgiving mother-in-law? You get your fifth chance when you step out this year. Don't say there's no second chance when you squander it like a hormone raging teenage girl."

Some days your own resolve is strong
But others day you bend

It's two steps forward, one step back
And you wonder now and then..

You wonder if you'll ever really make a difference
You pray everyday, but I know that prayer will be fulfilled...

Your life, woven day by day
Is a new design, of the glory God displays
On the canvas of creation
Through the poem of history
In the pattern of redemption
Running through the tapestry
Your life in Christ can be The greatest story ever told......